in which i share my birthday with zack morris (the human...)

just a few (10, to be exact)...

1.  no popcorn at class tonight :( but it was the *best* class so far.  ah-mazing. 

2.  had greek salad tonight at panera.  love.

3.  going to alabama on thurs/fri for teacher conference.  :/

4.  laundry sits in a basket on the floor...again.

5.  i think i am on the market for a new comforter....a brighter one.  i am really trying *not* to buy one from anthropologie...even though i l-o-v-e that store...

6.  aem informed me that i share my birthday with a bunch of people, but the only one of real importance...zack morris (the real human..not the character).

7.  my mom is amazing.  she has always been my cheerleader and encourager and i just love her (we talked for a few today)

8.  my dad is pretty stinkin' hilarious and wonderful too... :)

9.  the cable box has a red light that comes on when there is a new message (it is usually about wrestling...) and it scares me.  i am literally wake up and i am startled by the red light. 

10.  my student told me today that he is going to start bringing me framed pictures of cats for my desk because i am getting old and i am not married.  cat lady it is for me. gee, thanks, student. :/ 

11.  since my zack morris is in my title, i need one more to make it legitimately 10 original

things....

oh! i made "easy mac" for lunch... i am such a bad cook that i can't even make  "easy mac" right. good thing cat food has an easy open lid. 

in a boat...

growing hurts.  i hate it.  i know i need to grow and not be a pansy about things, but i hate it.  somethings have been going on and it has been a struggle.  yesterday i realized some things about those things (sorry this is confusing...) some recurring themes in my life surfaced again and instead of giving into my desire to get rid of those things and get away from them, i am going to be a big girl and stay and work my way through them.  it is easier to search out greener pastures, but problems and issues are the same no matter where you go.  despite what i think, it isn't about what i want.  sigh.  my heart is heavy.  i hate growing.

on greener grasses....

there is so much i could write but i just don't know how to put it all into words.  so instead of a deep and meaningful post...

i  talked to my sister today.  she informed me that some part of her phone fell in the toilet and she taught her beagle dog how to climb a ladder.  now all he wants to do is climb up on the wall surrounding their house.  kli (my sister) is all worked up about it....never mind the fact she *taught* him how to climb the ladder...poor little circus dog.  :(

update: 10:10 pm.
you should be so proud of me world.  today i cleaned.  seriously cleaned.  i cleaned out under the sink in the bathroom...going from 4 baskets of junk and stuff everywhere to 2 baskets of useful things.  all the junk amounted to 1/2 of a trash bag.  i folded laundry (finally) and threw some more in the washer (towels...which are already folded and put away...and sheets..waiting to come upstairs to be folded).  i re-folded all of my clothes in the drawers and cleaned out my closet resulting in a giant goodwill bag.  i also cleaned out my desk and one of my nightstands.  one really random find tonight:  pesos under my bed (?!).  on top of all of that i ironed my pants for tomorrow.  oh! and i went to to church.  gold star.

tainted love.

dearest figgy newton, why do you have to be so deliciously addicting and yet so fattening?!  you lure us in with your tastiness and then pack the pounds on us without even thinking twice about it.  your combination of cookie and cake is quite delightful.... can we just maybe lay off the fattening part??  yours truly, rnf.

so today i was leaving the target parking lot (eating a fig newton) and a guy almost plows into me.  he was a parking-lot-cutter-through-er.  (follow the lanes people!)  he got an angry honk from me because he seriously almost plowed into me.  so i called my mother just to let her know that i almost perished with a cookie in my mouth and after recalling my story she said "i thought you were trying to lose weight." no "i am so glad you are alive wonderful daughter oh mine!" or "what a bad driver that man was!  he deserved that angry honk!".  no she hones in on the fig newton part of my story and on how fattening they are.  i told her i only ate 3 (which at that time i had only eaten maybe 3) and she said she they are really fattening and she would have probably eaten all the cookies right away.  they are so addicting and delicious.

i tend to be an all or nothing kind of person.  it has been hard for me to find the middle ground in a lot of situations in my life.  i feel like i am getting better and i am learning how to be a little more balanced in areas of my life.  today i found something out that had the potential to be discouraging.  in the past it would have thrown me totally and i would be all anxious.  i am a bit disappointed, but i know that god is bigger and he knows what he is doing.  i don't even feel like i am back to square one... i still have hope... more hope than i do discouragement...which is huge for me.  it is about choices and how you react to things.  i am starting to realize that the glass isn't always half empty. :)

check out page 364!

i am so tired.  i kind of slept for about an hour this afternoon and laid around the rest of the evening.  around 9 i actually took out my contacts and got in bed.... and laid there... too tired to sleep.  so i decided to write. 

spirit week is over. hallelujah.  it is fun for the kids but a pain in the rear for someone  trying to do things like teach or give tests. there was a pep rally today and after the pep rally i started walking my class back to the school and in the church "the electric slide" started playing and they begged to go back in.  i was struck by a moment of warm-heartedness (instead of my usual cold-heartedness) and let them go back in.  i stood there and watched almost every single high-school and middle school kid (there were seriously like 4 who stayed out) do the electric slide.  kids that don't participate in anything were all doing it.  it was pretty awesome.  it totally made my day.

today in 7/8 science we used our textbook.  we don't use it a ton because it is not my favorite book and i have a lot of other resources i use to help fill in places...so there are some *ahem* diagrams and whatnot that some of the kids haven't had a chance to gawk look at.  i figured today at least one would get distracted.  i was right.  so we are talking about bone marrow and a girl in the back row hollers out "n.m. (who sits on the front row) is not on the right page.  he is looking at the female diagram".  so then of course people start getting giggly and so i ask if we need to turn to those pages to get it out of our systems.  the girl, without even flipping through her book announce that the "male anatomy" (she hollered out the actual word, which is fine in the context of science class...we use correct terminology) so she hollers out that the "male anatomy" is on page 364 and the "female anatomy" (which here she used slang) is on page 366.  the girl didn't even have her book on the reproductive system pages...she had the page numbers memorized!  these are the kids that i am taking to the bodies exhibit in 2 weeks.  lord have mercy.

we're men of snow...we melt one day...

ugh!  I AM READY... whoa, caps! i am so ready for life to slow down a bit.  i feel like i am constantly doing something  and that is not my nature.  i was home kind of early (6-ish) only one night this week.   i am exhausted....and i am very very emotional.  i am tempted to make decisions based on my emotions, but i am really trying not to base decisions on emotion.  i am going based on logic.  logic is actually having a somewhat pull, which is good because in the past emotion ruled the roost.   another  thing that emotion is doing is it is filtering things that are  probably said out of love and are totally innocent and they are twisting them to be harsh and rejectful (not a word....fully aware.)  once again, it is good that i am able to notice this and logically and (somewhat)  rationally think things through and let them go.  that is good. 

tomorrow is friday.  that is amazingly good.  and since  i am a loser with no social life... i have no plans tomorrow night...which i am so ok with.  i am going to catch up on all the shows i partially watched during the week but couldn't tell you anything about... 

my shirt smells good. 
they had popcorn at the game tonight!  love.

so i have been keeping the book for basketball games this season and i realized tonight that i know what the call is before the ref comes over to tell us.  before i would have to wait for the ref and make sure i had the right thing down, but now i know who the foul is called on and how many shots just from actually watching the game (it is amazing what you can pick up when you aren't talking to the clock person the entire game. ha!).  i have loved keeping the book this season.  i have really gotten into sports since the majority of my classes for the past three years are boys. you have to know some stuff about sports to settle arguments and you just pick up a lot of what they are talking about...i much prefer sports over things like...i don't know.  i can't really think of anything that i like less than sports to watch on tv.  i guess i would choose sports over things like  lifetime movies... or deal or no deal...shows were people yell a lot (i really hate yelling since my kids are so loud during the day)...and oprah.  yep.  that is about it. 

today i had a 5th grade boy say to me (*completely* out of the blue) "ms. f, life is what you make it."  i don't know why he said it or where he got it from (he was drawing insects) but obviously felt like i needed to hear that.  a few minutes later he said "ms. f, i am going to have to send you to the office."  he makes my heart smile. 

<3

laundry and onions are taking over my world...

(jwc, do not read this post.  if you do read, do not judge.)

i love cookies.  seriously.  love. them. i love any kind of cookie...and usually if i am someplace that offers cookies (panera!!) i get one.  why i am writing this?  i just went to subway and had some cookies.  they were wonderful.

i *have* to fold laundry tonight.  period.  there is no option.  really there is an option, but i do not have any laundry baskets to put the dirty clothes in...because they all (3!) are filled with clean clothes.  sigh.  reason #17 why i need a man.  to (a.) help me fold the clothes or (2.) talk to me while i fold the clothes he folds the clothes.

there is a baketball game tomorrow night that i am going to.  it is an away game...in a kind of far away city....at a school that made fun of our cheerleaders last time, but i am going with sm to help with crowd control and keep the book.

gosh, my subway is making my room smell like onions.  that must be taken care of.... :/

update:  here it is 9:24 and i folded maybe 3 pieces of laundry, put them back in the laundry basket folded...dumped all the unfolded ones into another laundry basket and stacked the baskets on top of each other.  my disdain for my unfolded laundry is so strong that in order to avoid folding them, i am actually grading papers.  seriously? grading papers??  i just looked at my laundry and gave it the stink eye. 

rnf + unfolded laundry = archenemies